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If you feel like dying please read this first !!
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I hope someone could help me !
I have problems really bad so freaky bad.. i dont know whats wrong so here this is .. since i was 15 something keeps telling me to kill myself put an end to this fu… pain but i just cant dont know to ask for help!!
i used to move alot, from city to city so i never had too many friends and the ones i met at school were mean to me because of my accent or the way i looked i dont know, every single mistake or even if just because !! i dont know why people can be this bad !! wasnt easy for me but it looks like those people liked to play funny ….. i dont know but i survive !! i went to college and they didnt well most of them became parent before college so they couldnt or accidents … many things !!
well in college i starting to feel weird like my head couldnt take it .. the memories of my life, the problems at home, i tried to kill myself in my second year but nothing happen .. i took some pills and just feel sleep .. never told anybody !! a year later i cut myself and it wasnt deep but it hurt !! really hurt but i kept trying but never had the courage to finalize it !! i dont know if im brave or so stupid but being here !! i really dont know
i asked for help a few weeks ago and my doc told me to write a journal he said that it could help me !! i dont know !! maybe if i tell my story someone will help me or we could help each other !! i want to live but it REALLY HURTS !! and THEY KEEP TALKIN AND SAYIN HOW IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH !! and im stuck on my room all the time i dont want to go outside !!